rope.

sick again.

been 25 years.

oblivious me.

sleeping.

no more stairs.

crutches to walk.

help with each step.

tired eyes.

for the first time,

defeated.

calls to neurologists.

researching.

asking questions.

trying to help.

not enough.

not enough.

not enough.

can't fix this.

can't change it.

no control.

want to kick this disease's a*s.

but it's stonger than her this time.

it's fast. and it's strong.

the last time I saw it I was 11 years old.

and i remember.

scared, helpless.

please no chair.

please, please, please no chair.

seeking strength for her.

she is home in two weeks to Maine.

love.

hugs.

support.

and rope.

to pull her out of this.