pneumonia

i think about the times noah has had pneumonia. how he was hospitalized when he was two years old and put back on oxygen because of it. how we thought we were in the clear at that point and couldn't believe we were sitting back in that hospital. But never, ever once did it occur to me that he could have died during that stay. not once. I was worried and I cried. I hated to see him connected to all those tubes again, but it was again, how it had all started. Like any mother I wanted to trade places with him. But I, maybe we, forget that these viruses and infections and cause our bodies to shut down. To be here one day, catch a cold, go the hospital "just to be safe" and never get discharged. I just can't believe it. It makes me stop and think of my blessings.

RIP Bernie Mac.